Has it really been since November since I posted? Wow, sorry yall. Here are some updates:
With the encouragement of my therapist and ob-gyn, I started anti-depressants. What a difference! I've been on them since February and honestly, I've never felt better. All of the anger that has been plaguing me is gone. I no longer feel like the world is out to get me. I don't feel pressured to produce a kid. I mean, I still want kids, but the thought of not having one doesn't send me into a depressive spiral.
We bought a house! Granted, we can't move in until mid-August and our lease at the apartment is up at the end of July, so yeah, we'll be homeless for a couple of weeks. Thankfully we have family that is willing to put up with us.
And that's it. I think?
