Monday, February 3, 2014

Hard, hard weekend

This weekend was hard.  Really hard.  A college roommate had her baby Friday afternoon.  Then I find out last night my cousin is expecting.  She only got married in June.  After only knowing her husband for 6 months.  I'm sick and tired of people beating me to the finish line of a race I've been running longer than any of them.

I got low last night.  Really low.  I prayed.  I prayed hard.  I told God I felt like I was being forsaken and asked if he had forgotten me.  I'm angry.  Feeling betrayed.  It's getting harder and harder to keep my faith. I imagine I'm being tested.  But not sure what purpose it's supposed to serve.

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