Today I saw the psychotherapist. She's really nice, and we spent an hour and a half talking. I can't even remember how many times I sat there crying, but she was patient and encouraging. We roughed out some problems that I need to work on, specifically identity issues. Also anger. She asked if I would be interested in antidepressants, but I expressed my concern over whether or not it would effect fertility and/or treatment. She suggested that if, in the future I want to try them, to talk with the fertility specialist. She would even sit in on the conversation with me if I want. But for now I think just talking is what I need, which I expressed. I'm seeing her again in 3 weeks, by which time I shall have seen my specialist.
This is the first time I've really sat down with someone (qualified) to talk about issues. Approximately 8 years ago I was being bullied by my former boss, so I used my university's counseling center. I was assigned a psych grad student, which was ok at the time, but I realize that as an adult, I need someone qualified to handle larger life issues.